A girl I first met in secondary school. The moment she stepped into the classroom I knew she was special.before she blossomed into the person she is today I already fell for her. I don’t know why. Maybe its her grace,her laughter,her kindness or maybe it was her outgoing character. I don’t know. Everything about her just seems perfect. But I our two worlds are far too different. She’s from a rich family. One that’s bonded too. Mine is the complete opposite.I doubt she was ever interested in me during secondary school for even a millisecond. I was and still am far too insignificant for her. She’s too good for me. Call it crazy but I think im in love with her and not just a simple crush……okay maybe in between the two. But its definitely more than just a crush. I had crushes before and this feeling I feel whenever I see her is so much more intense. One that fills me up with so much joy or sorrow that can last for a whole day at a time. I have tried forgetting her to maybe forget my pain of this one sided feeling I have which I know will never be two sided. I haven’t stopped liking her and I doubt I ever will. It has been 5 years now and this still hasn’t changed. I may have written something like this before but this feeling compels me to keep writing it out time and time again to let out all this sorrow I feel which I can’t share with anyone. I want to cry but I cant. Every time I look at her photos in her profile seeing how happy she is, I cant help but wish I was there with her. Spending those moments with her. Being the one that makes her smile in those photos. But knowing that that isn’t possible and that it will never happen makes me just so depressed. An emotion I don’t feel for any other reason. These few years since I met her, the few times I got depressed was because of feelings for her. And im not one to get depressed or emotional easily. I cant even be a friend to her other then a facebook one. I just hope one day….a day not too far in the future…that I can be at least on speaking terms with her since I never got to that since I was too shy and didn’t talk to her when I first met her and over the years I didn’t get that courage either. I guess she felt I was unfriendly towards her… Somehow I get the strong feeling she knows, she showed some signs that she knew. In fact I once lost myself looking at her in sec 2 and her friend saw me looking at her and both turned at looked at me and I embarrassingly turned away. I never subconsciously find myself looking at anyone before. I guessed that’s how she knew. But nevertheless she never did ask me and I never did tell her directly. But then again she knew but did nothing. She clearly isn’t interested at all. Some friends told me a guy has to make the first move and the girl is waiting for you to do so. But I doubt it will work in this case. Everything is pretty jumbled up and if anyone ever reads this I apologise for it. But one cant organize his thoughts when one is depressed. Till the next time I get depressed over the girl called rtly then…